Out of a sudden I feel just so sadden by everything. Amazing Grace ♥ The song that makes my heart breaks so badly, ever since my Grandma passed away. Hate to say that I wish I could be stronger in many ways and really wishes that I won't feel so incompetent when others. But I know God has a plan for everybody , even me. The time hasn't been right yet but it will definitely comes. No matter how much tantrum or anger we throw, God's decision won't change. It will only makes us wanna drift away from God if we keep complaining & comparing. Sometimes I wish I wasn't quiet while with people with higher authority and older people. It just makes me feel so weak, inferior & suppressed. Unable to express my emotions like I used to be, sigh. Always feels that I have to obey their instructions, give them the ample amount of respect. Why? Why can't I have casual talks with them? Argh. I just don't get it :/ I guess I needa wait for the right time.