Why am I so soft-hearted for the wrong reasons? I really do wonder why.
As usual, this year CNY is all about majong once again. Sometimes I wish I could stop playing majong and have a htht session with my cousins. It's much more beneficial than mahjong mahjong and mahjong non-stop for 7 hours. Simply ridiculous yet I still do it. This year definitely don't have the chinese new year mood, my paternal's side grandma has passed away maternal grandpa has passed away. And it's a suspicious for them to not give red packets, it's not about the red packets but more of getting up and seeing how are they doing. Reached my maternal side's relatives house and realized there's a whole new conflict once again. About these and that, pretty annoying and to see my grandma getting skinnier and bedridden it's pretty sad. I wish I could do something for her, but i don't know how. It's always the lack of courage that drives me to appease people again and again. Hate myself for that, seriously. It's like millions of arrows had been shot at me at once go.
It's just the beginning of Cny. Hope tomorrow will be a much more pleasant day.
