My mind was in a blank I suppose, so many things I wanna share but it just didn't came out from my mouth. You are definitely one of the quiet and amazing brother I know. Like what the others had shared you are loving in your own way and I do felt it at times but I guess I did reject the love from you too. And I'm truly guilty and remorseful about it. I wonder why I do it at times, maybe it's because of the awkwardness I guess. But I do realized my mistake and I'll change to be a better and understanding brother in the future.
Glad the planned work and Mat was surprised ;) Really awesome to plan something and give all my heart and soul for somebody, really it matters alot! Especially what today's biblestudy is all about Charity! Giving is not only by will but it require love at times. When we like somebody we will tend to give more attention to the somebody and it doesn't mean it's bad or even showing favoritism. It's like if you like to eat apple you will eat it everyday! But overeating is definitely no good. Like too much vitamin it's hurtful to our body, so apply to that, if you show too much attention to the somebody till you neglect your studies or everything it's bad too. Excessive is always no good for us. And now I realized sometimes I do things cause of guilt. Cause I always feel I'm doing not good enough for God and it's really bad. A bit of guilt driven is always good but too much it's harmful to us as well. It guess I should start knowing it and realized that i'm not perfect and no point striving to be perfect, cause I still need God and rely on God all the times. We might fall all the times, but we just needa keep repenting and keep standing up tall again and again. It really convict me deeply and teaches me how to handle stuff in a much mature way too.
Hope Mat will love the surprise ven, jada, paul, rachel, jinyang, jason, angelo and I had prepared :) Tomorrow will be another great day ahead, hope the date will go well! :D
Thank God for all these. ♥
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