My birthday is coming in a couple of hours and I'm here feeling ill. Ord is around the corner/ Ord trip is in few weeks' time. So many things to keep me occupied till June. What is after next? I really don't know. Future seems so blurry and uncertain to me. Till now, twenty-two years old and counting. Birthday is still something I don't know how to feel about. Celebrating it? Oh well, with my given condition I can't eat cakes nor talk much. Throat hurting like its the end of the world, its an agony to even swallow my own saliva. Save me from this torturous pain. I want relief. I want comfort. Nurse me, somebody. Please do.