Done with my final night shift, and I'm really really tired. Tired of the job scope I have to cover up, doing junior work and SN work. The amount of stress I have to cope is always piling up in my mind and it's forever there. Nonetheless I learnt a lot from it, knowing my strength and weakness and it's time to buck and it's already serve me as a last warning if not anything bad might happen to me, as far as failing this posting. Thank God for every single thing He had given me and shown me. Really appreciated him so much. Woah, I came back from work till now I'm still awake, able to concuss and just have my beauty sleep but I refused. Since when have I reflect about my life? Everything seems to vague when I said I had reflected but deep down I have not done a proper one. The denial of myself through time had made me a different person and mold me up better as well. However in another perspective I might lose true self, not knowing what I want. But God has shown me the way till now. Not being self-focus is really something I have been doing during my 11month as a Christian. The up and downs makes me stronger and allow me to guard my heart. To others, guarding of the heart might be difficult, might be challenging but really surrender to God and that is how things will start changing. For me to be so easily not to be self-focus, mainly cause I'm surrender-er. Much more worst than a people-pleaser I should say. Things that I couldn't change much. It's definitely my weakness but in a other hand it can be my strength cause I can totally rely on God without hesitation. Anyway Time for me to get some sleep before my activity day starts, done with my facial therapy and Strawberry here I come.!