Amazingly I wrote about 30 letters to 30 different people when I was sick and busy with attachment, I'm still feel pretty astonished by what I have done. Really. The things I wrote was kinda remarkable, things that I couldn't remember after I wrote for all of them but it's the experienced we had and I did really think very deep so that I can encourage them as well. Even though not everybody give me the simple return of acknowledge but it's alright though. Just realized something a few days ago when Alexis told me that acknowledge and encouragement from humans are like bonus if you have it it's great but if you doesn't have it it's alright as well. Cause I already received encouragement from God through the Bible and it is all it matters. That should be the only way to really not feel so disappointed when people don't give you encouragement and what's not. Glad now I'm feeling much better and don't need words of encouragement from people. I still need time to pray about it and change in my thinking. Appreciate what Alexis has shared with me, May Lord protect her and watch over her all the time and that she will be safe in US.